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Its been a very very long time since I've actually written in this thing. I decided to update the look, got bored, its my birthday and hubby had to go to bed early to go into work tomorrow. I don't update this thing much cause I mostly keep in contact with people through facebook. It just seems easier.

I've been reading a lot lately. Not as much time on the computer, mostly cause I can read while Rowynn plays and if I get on the computer while she's awake, most of the time she screams at me.

The last time I wrote in this thing Rowynn hadn't even been born yet. That's a long time, considering she's over 13 months old now. She's got almost 10 teeth, and in a few weeks she'll have 2 more. She talks a LOT, too bad we can't really understand what she says. Though we understand the "yeah" and "no" and lately she's been trying to say "nigh nigh". She doesn't say "mama" unless she's crying and its "ma ma ma ma ma ma". "Daaaaaad" she can say just fine, she'll run to him while saying it". She tries to say "more" and I think "Ba" is something to drink or eat. She loves to dance and seems to really enjoy the theme song to Phineaus and Ferb.

Bayvin is in 2nd grade and We're really struggling on whether or not to keep her back. Somedays everything seems to just click, but she can't do testing very well at all, most of her scores are incredibly low and one of the lowest in the class. She's gotten help with math and reading and I know it helps, but testing just doesn't show it. Her teacher thinks this is the last chance if we want to do it. In 3rd grade she thinks it'll be too hard socially. We're gonna discuss it again in May. The principal doesn't believe in holding kids back so it would definitely be our decision. I've talked to her about it and she doesn't want to stay back. So I'm even wondering if it would be a good idea socially now. I want to have faith that next year it'll just click or something. Her teacher keeps saying that its maturity that's slowing her down.

I'm getting a breast reduction June 2nd and I'm scared shitless. I'm worried about the pain and recovery. I'm sure it'll be totally worth it, but knowing that doesn't help much. Before Bayvin I was a 34 barely C. Now I'm a 38DD. It sucks when you can lift up your boobs and feel the weight lifting from your back and shoulders. The only unfortunate part about this, is that the doc says that they aren't that big, its a lot to do with the sagging. Lots of extra skin. My insurance will cover it, but for it to be considered a breast "reduction" he has to take at least 500grams from each which will make me about a full B. Smaller than I'd want to be, I was hoping for a C. But I can't afford a breast lift, so I have to deal with it. On the flip side, I'll never have to worry about them causing back pain again, and they'll be perky, won't necessarily have to wear a bra. I'll be able to wear built in bra tank tops again.

Today was my birthday. It was a pretty good day considering I turned 30. I got great presents, though my new video card isn't here yet, should be tomorrow. My parents already got me a great present when they were out here. A 50mm 1.8/f lens for my awesome Canon Rebel XS. I love it. Its taken such great pictures (those pics up top were taken with it). On saturday we're going up to Black Oak Casino and gonna go bowling and a little gambling, like we do every year on my birthday. I tried to do this year different but it didn't work out. And I haven't gotten that tattoo that I wanted to get when I turned 30.